PERFECTIONISM - TRYING TO BE RIGHT
Your Survival Strategy
You have a Survival Strategy. You are not your Survival Strategy.
WHAT IS SURVIVAL?
Survival is a specific orientation to life where your entire purpose and focus is to simply get by, to make it through, to not be killed in any way.
Surviving takes everything you have to maintain your status quo. It is designed the way so you have no surplus Presence, no abundance of Being or Being With.
This is why surviving is exhausting. At the end of the day - or the end of each moment - there is no surplus.
The objective of many Survival Strategies is to create enough surplus (money, food, fame, love...) that you can finally feel safe enough to relax.
But you must stay in survival so that your Survival Strategy works, and you have no other options for your life, so the safety created by having properties, cars, bank accounts, investment portfolios, lovers, 'friends' in high places, etc. is all superficial, and in the end useless, because your overall objective is still survival. The unconsciously terrifying fear-based inner-world of survival still prevails.
WHAT IS YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY?
WHERE DID YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY COME FROM?
HOW DOES YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY WORK?
The first answer to the question, "How does your Survival Strategy work?" is, "It works just fine!" Or else you might not be alive.
YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY IS PART OF YOUR 'BOX'
TYPES OF SURVIVAL STRATEGIES
An excellent reason to learn about various types and functionalities of Survival Strategies (that is, if you need a reason...) is to become a more relational human being. Every human being has a Survival Strategy.
Every human being is potentially NOT their Survival Strategy.
To whatever degree a person is still identified with their Survival Strategy and relating to the world and others (including you...) from their Survival Strategy, it pays big time to understand how the various types of Survival Strategies work so that you can work around them and experience some human-to-human connection.
It does not matter what kind of Survival Strategy you use because they all more-or-less work. You have survived.
SURVIVAL STRATEGY COMPONENTS
- Believing and committing to the view that "I am okay."
- Believing and committing to the view that "I am not okay."
- Installing Energetic Blocks around your heart, your voice, your sexuality, your mental acuity.
- Splintering-off parts of your Being during trauma and keeping the part of you disconnected so you are never whole again.
- Using the smallest shred of evidence to make the same Stories over and over to support your Survival Strategy worldview.
- Create Mind Splits.
- Create Mind Machines.
- Creating Major Victim Circumstances to be rescued and/or to get revenge.
- To escape into Fantasy Worlds.
- To escape into Confusion.
- To escape into Delusions (self-generated illusions about what is and what is not).
- To flood yourself with Voices from external authority figures that judge and criticize you.
- To try to be Perfect and either imagine that you succeed and are 'The Chosen One', or that you fail and that you are 'The Hopeless One'.
- To Control everyone and everything around you using Perfectionist ideals which they may or may not subscribe to, but you do, and you are RIGHT.
- To drop out of society and become a hippie surfer vagabond bum. Make society wrong, or make yourself WRONG in the eyes of society.
- To join as a follower in any kind of sect (such as a church with a belief system...) to avoid having to take responsibility for your life in the world.
- To Contaminate your Adult Ego State with your Child Ego State so you can rule the world around you as a child with neediness and tantrums.
- To Contaminate your Adult Ego State with your Parent Ego State so you can rule the world around you as a parent, with rules and commands.
- To Contaminate your Adult Ego State with your Gremlin Ego State so you can rule the world around you with Shadow Principles.
- To Contaminate your Adult Ego State by making a Contract with some kind of Demon which takes over in stressful situations.
- To become invisible and powerless so you are not perceived as dangerous and others to not have to attack you.
- To mix your Emotions and live addicted to emotional states of aggressivity, nostalgia, depression, sentimentality, hysteria, isolation, despair, jealousy, shame, greed, resignation, carelessness, self-pity, self-hatred so people cannot connect with you.
- To stay addicted to unnecessary risks, investments, gambling, spying, lying, cheating, stealing, fighting in gangs, competing against other businesses in win-lose games.
- To become 'uglier' or 'more beautiful' than all those around you.
- To saturate your interactions with sexual energy as a White Widow, Grey Widow, or Black Widow.
- To become cheerful, bright, and happy all the time so as not to be a burden.
- To become unpleasable so as to constantly punish anyone who might want to love you or care for you.
- To be socially or intellectually inferior or superior to all others, regardless of the evidence.
- To voraciously climb the ladder in any hierarchical organization to gain the maximum power over all the others so as to command them to do your bidding.
- ...and on and on and on.
Human beings are astonishingly inventive with the diversity and inconceivable cleverness of the Survival Strategies we create. The only problem with your glorified circus side-show act is that even the most successful Survival Strategy only creates the same outcome as any other: mere survival.
LOOKING GOOD AND LOOKING BAD SURVIVAL STRATEGIES
from Gabriel Millinger 2022
I Observe that parallel to the "looking good" strategy, I also use a "looking bad" strategy.
Looking bad is being upfront about being hooked, having an emotion, being sucked into low drama, etc..
After I state these things, I look good (by looking bad) and very often I am not asked further questions and no action has to occur.
Thus, I set up a space in which I am accepted by the team by manipulating them: They think that I "do my work" while I take care with my Gremlin that they do not catch me, so no transformation occurs.
In case the Team points me out, I have lots of Reasoning and disguise-confetti, and only rarely is their Sword Of Clarity steady and sharp enough (and their Conscious Gremlins big enough) to reach me.
I got into a huge Liquid State, when Devin Gleeson and Benedikt Betz Navigated Space for me and did not put their Swords down. It was intense with all the confetti in the room.
My Gremlin roared and tried all of his strategies. Even now, 3 months after this space, I am still Liquid, and I live with a question Anne-Chloé Destremau asked on the Possibilitator DACH call a few weeks ago: How can I take care that I consciously use my own Gremlin to take my Gremlin apart into a Liquid State?
This is my new Practice. It keeps me quite awake!
SURVIVAL MOTIVATED BEHAVIORS
Survival-driven behaviors are often used unconsciously instead of consciously choosing healthy, balanced, compassionate, and intimate living behaviors.
See bottom of list for tips on how to use the information that follows (i.e. what to do instead of survival-driven behaviors).
Abuse, emotional of self or others
Abuse, physical of self or others
Accountability, lack of
Acting out
Addictions, chemical***
Adrenaline addictions (non-ingested chemical addiction to one’s own adrenaline, etc.)
Alcoholism***
Anger*
Angry behaviors
Attachments
Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD/ADHD)**
Avoiding emotions
Backaches
Bitchiness or irritability
Blaming
Boredom
Boredom, avoidance of
Brattiness
Breath, holding
Bulemia
Bullying
Burnout
Challenging others
Chaos, creating or seeking
Charisma*
Commitments, not keeping
Competitiveness -- can be of the Light or the Dark. Intent is the separating point.
Compulsions
Conflict, avoidance of
Conflict, creation of
Confusion
Conning others
Contracts, vague
Control , self, excessive
Controlling, of others or afraid of from others
Criticizing others
Death, avoidance of thoughts of
Death-defying
Defensiveness
Defiance
Demanding
Denial
Dependency, excessive
Dependency, rejection of
Depression**
Determination (Can be healthy and balanced or expression of excitement addiction) *
Difficulty following rules
Discounting**
Dissociating
Drama, creating or seeking
Drug addiction***
Drug dealing
Eating disorders
Ego addiction
Emotional insensitivity
Enemies, creation of
Enemies, having none
Excitement addiction
Faith, lack of
Fear that is not reality based
Feelings, avoidance of
Feelings, control of instead of working with
Feelings, denial or discounting* of
Feelings, intense*
Fighting
Fleeing
Frustration
"F--- You" Attitude Or
Getting even
Getting rid of others
Giving up
God, lack of belief in
Happiness that is not reality based
Headaches
Helplessness
Hurrying, excessively
Hyper vigilance
Inability to cooperate with others
Illnesses, all with a psychological component
"I'll do it myself" attitude
Insomnia
Intensity, emotional
Intimacy, avoidance of
Intimacy, difficulty with
Isolation
Jealousy
Judgmental, being
“Kick Me Game”
Laughter, inappropriate
Lust
Lying, Bold-faced, small and white lies
Masking (Anastasia, The Storyteller has been masterful at this one.)
Mortality, avoidance of thoughts on
Narcissism
Not forgiving self or others
Now I’ve Got You, You SOB Game
Numbness, emotional
Over-adapting
Over-eating
Partying, excessively
Passive aggressiveness
Perfectionism
Persecuting
Pleasing others, excessively
Polarizing over differences rather than seeking ways to resolve them
Power addiction
Power struggles
Power, abuse of
Powerlessness, excessive
Procrastination
Promiscuity
Psychosomatic illnesses, all;
Psychological game playing, pathologically
Punishing others
Rage
Rebelliousness
Rescuing
Resistance*
Revenge, seeking
Rigidity
Risk-taking, excessively*
Sadness that is not reality based
Seducible, being
Seductiveness
Self-centeredness
Sexual acting-out
Solitude, avoidance of
Solitude, excessive
Speed-rapping
Spiritual confusion and conflicts
Stealing
Stress
Stubbornness*
Survival motivations, excessive
Survival-Driven Behaviors, excessive or unrealistic
Suspiciousness
Talking, excessively
Temper tantrums
Trying hard
Urgency
Vengefulness
Victim, position
Violence
Void, avoidance of experiencing
Withdrawal*
Yelling
* Some of these Survival-Driven Behaviors may appear to be contradictions of one another. Examples are charisma,
determination and “Enemies, creation of” and “Enemies, having none.“
However, they simply reflect that there are different Warrior styles.
Passive Warriors and Aggressive Warriors are two distinct types with
shades of both generally present in most of us.
** Some Survival-Driven Behaviors may also have a biological or chemical base.
*** Discounting defined -- minimizing or ignoring data (i.e. needs, emotions), rather that acknowledging, that is relevant to an individual (i.e. needs, emotions), a situation or the solving of a problem (i.e. driving on a flat tire instead of fixing it promptly).
For a discussion of the challenges of the "Aggressive Warrior" in relationships, you may enjoy reading Winning At Love, on the work, in this area, of my former psychiatrist mentor, Martin G. Groder, M.D., and his associate, Pat Webster. It is Dr. Groder's seminal work on the survivor/addict personality that is the basis for the concepts presented on this page.
Additional notes: holding with respect) = (i.e. preparatedness for a hurricane)
Copyrighted, 1998 by Marcia E. RosenTHE COST OF HAVING YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY IN CHARGE
You cannot be Present as yourself.
Not being present as yourself cuts you off from connection with others, communication, intimacy, teamwork.
You are restricted to having only one purpose: survival.
Having only the survival purpose means you cannot Take A Stand, you cannot Commit, you cannot Shift Identity, you must dedicate your Gremlin to your own survival and cannot, for example, use your Gremlin to Go Nonlinear or Go Unreasonable.
Having only the survival purpose means you cannot advocate for anything other than your own survival. You cannot be your Archetypal Lineage in action, you cannot serve something greater than yourself.
In the condition where protecting yourself is necessary in order to keep being able to serve your Archetypal Lineage, the situation is temporary. Once you are out of the situation then surviving is put back in its proper place and you can continue to Live Full Out.
STAY IN FANTASY WORLDS - BELIEVE WHATEVER YOU WANT TO BE TRUE
THE FLIP OVER FROM SURVIVING TO LIVING
WHAT IS LIVING?
Isn't it strange that questions such as, "What is life about?" "How should I live?" "What is the meaning of life?" "What does it mean to really live?" are understandable and perhaps even considered important?
The questions indicate the state of the questioner.
Without being shown or given any other options besides merely surviving, the 'how to live' questions make sense. "What is life really about?" "Is this all there is?"
The Context of modern culture does not permit further distinctions to be made. But this restriction in that Context does not prevent additional distinctions being made in other Contexts.
This is where the Context of next culture - Archiarchy - begins to shine. Its Distinctions provide whole new domains of perception, experience, inner navigation, skillfulness, responsibility and awareness.
BUILD MATRIX FOR ADULTHOOD
Leaving behind Survival by shifting into Living does not happen by itself. Yes, you are designed for the transition from Survival to Living to take place, beginning about 18 years of age. But several factors weigh unfairly against you.
First, you are born and raised in a culture that does not prepare you for this great life transition. Schooling only emphasizes intellectual development, and your mind has been distorted out of proportion to such a degree that you may think that you will die if you stop thinking.
Second, authentic Healing and Adulthood Initiatory processes that are formidable enough to cause Transformation have been banished from modern culture some 6000 years ago. Any ideas you may have heard about 'initiation into adulthood' have probably come from indigenous or mass-religion traditions that are not founded in and do not relate to the rapidly changing conditions on Earth at the beginning of the 21st Century.
Third, cultures that welcome and support you becoming a Living Initiated Adult Being are only partially established so far. Small pockets of archiarchal 'next cultures' thrive in certain project spaces, consciously-contexted nanonations, and intentional communities. These operate well-below the radar of mainstream news, so - due to you being terrorized by big government and corporate media - you assume anything so 'abnormal' must be a dangerous cult or sect. The injunction is that you must be crazy if you are attracted to anything like that.
The net result is that up until now it is very unlikely that you have built much Matrix in your Being so support Living.
The necessity of, and procedures for, Building Matrix are neither understood nor promoted in modern culture.
Matrix is built out of new Distinctions that land in your Being and catch more consciousness.
- Take A Stand for entering a Life Of Learning by entering a Life Of Practice.
- Become Centered.
- Become Grounded.
- Become Bubbled.
- Become Present.
- Minimize your NOW.
- Avoid making Judgements, even about other people's Judgements.
- Avoid making Conclusions, even about other people's Conclusions.
- Avoid making Stories, even about other people's Stories.
- Avoid making Assumptions, even about other people's Assumptions.
- Avoid making Expectations, even about other people's Expectations.
- Avoid making Resentments, even about other people's Resentments.
- Hold Space for something other than Survival.
- Navigate Space into Extraordinary and Archetypal domains in all parts of your life.
- Have your Sword Of Clarity to hand.
- Start entering your Matrix Points in your free account at StartOver.xyz.
- Upgrade your Thoughtware from Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware.
- Learn to Consciously Feel.
- Participate in a 4-or-8 week online-or-offline Rage Club. Consider also doing Rage Club Spaceholder Training to deliver Rage Club yourself.
- Create enough Value to quit your corporate job.
- Make Distinctions.
- Read all of the Recommended Possibilitator Books, preferably with someone else or better, in a weekly Study Group.
- Make Boundaries. Say what you want. Say what you don't want. Unleash your Real Voice.
- Take Radical Responsibility for your life.
- Avoid Low Drama. Consciously feed your Gremlin with your High Drama requests.
- Create an official weekly Possibility Team, online or offline.
- Watch all of the Recommended Possibilitator Videos, preferably in your Possibility Team.
- Negotiate 5 Body Intimacy Journeys.
- Relocate your Point Of Origin to archearchy.
Will Building this much Matrix take time and energy to do?
Yes. It will.
Where can you get the time and energy (and money) to Build this much Matrix?
By placing Matrix Building at the center of your life, the highest Value of your world... higher than new shoes, watching sports on TV, gossiping, being in Low Dramas, rebuilding your apartment, gambling, smoking, drinking, having the finest foods, going to health spa resorts, etc.
THE WHOLE WORLD DISSOLVES
There is a problem you create by Building Matrix. When you have enough Matrix - you experience 'evolution by reflex'. What this means is that, almost without warning, when you have built the proper quantity and quality of Matrix, your awareness and values suddenly evolve to the next level of complexity, elegance, and sophistication. You can suddenly create things you could never create before. You suddenly understand, connect, and relate in ways you could never understand or relate in before. You can suddenly take responsibility for things you could not take responsibility for before. Your previous world suddenly dissolves as if it did not actually exist, and you find yourself in an entirely new world. Nothing changes but everything is different. If you have not heard of this before it can be violently unsettling. For example, you might assume that you are going insane. (You are not.) Now that you have heard of it, when it occurs, you have your little 'X' on the map that tells you what is actually going on. You are evolving simply because you had enough Matrix for this particular evolution to occur.
Seeds sprout when they are in proper conditions. Caterpillars emerge from their cocoon when they are sufficiently formed. Humans evolve into new orders of awareness when they have built enough Matrix. This is pretty straightforward stuff, the mechanics of Transformation.
The experience is what you might come to recognize as: Radical Adventure. Evolution by reflex is Radical Adventure.
Those people we know who have made the flip over from Surviving to Living report a significant Liquid State in every dimension of themselves and their life. What this means specifically is unique for each person (because each person is unique), but in general this Mega Liquid State seems to have several characteristics in common.
For example:
NEW WORLDVIEWS EMERGE
JACKING-IN TO ADULTHOOD
BRIGHT PRINCIPLES
ARCHETYPAL LINEAGE
HEALING PROCESSES
AUTHENTIC ADULTHOOD INITIATIONS
ENTER PHASE 2 OF EVERYTHING
Phase 2 of Feelings Work.
Phase 2 of Gremlin Work.
BECOMING A SOURCE OF TRANSFORMATION
Stop waiting around for someone else to cause Transformation in you.
Stop waiting around for someone else to cause Transformation in your circumstances.
Stop waiting around for someone else to cause Transformation in your organization.
RELOCATE YOUR ASSEMBLAGE POINT
SHIFT IDENTITY
LIVING ECSTATICALLY IN 5-BODIES
Deconstellating (an EHP)
In the context of Family Constellation as formulated by Bert Hellinger, when the first child is born, they look around for a role model to follow, often the father or the mother. When the second child is born, the role chosen by the first child is already taken, so the second child chooses a different role model, etc. The purpose of choosing a role model is practical: to adopt an already-working Survival Strategy. The role model is copied whole. It happens in only a few moments. The result is you end up with the free space inside of you filled up with some kind of blob or concoction. Then, whenever circumstances arise around you, you respond and interact according to the form of the role you adopted. The benefit of this is the survival strategy. You survive as well as your role model. The handicap is that this strategy has a "best if used by"-date, which is when you turn eighteen years old. Occupying your central nothingness with an already used strategy prevents you from being you. Everything you represent as yourself is a lie because it comes from the adopted strategy rather than being invented by you now. As with the majority of Archan initiations, preparations are mandatory. For example, it is necessary that you can live in First Position, and can Inner Navigate your Four Feelings and Four Emotions. The process of Deconstellating requires a skilled spaceholder (suh as a Possibility Coach) to guide the Client to give the copied Survival Strategy back to the person they copied it from with gratitude, and also with irreversibility, meaning, into another dimension with an energetic protection barrier that can be traversed in only one direction, away. There may still be echo behaviors from so many years of following the patterns of the other person’s survival strategy, but once identified as echoes, they can fall away quite easily.
BILLIONAIRE - BEING A 'SUCCESS' AS DEFINED BY EXTERNAL AUTHORITY
BEGGAR - BEING A 'FAILURE' TO AVOID HAVING TO BE RESPONSIBLE
NICE GIRL/ GOOD BOY - BEING CHEERFUL AND BRIGHT TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY
SURVIVOR - TOUGHER THAN ANYTHING OUT THERE: TOUCH ME AND YOU DIE
Survival Strategy Experiments
Painful awareness is a catalyst that allows your Being to escape from deep patterns into bigger Presence and Connection. This is what these Experiments are for. Before you start Experimenting, read these hints thoroughly.
- EXPERIMENT: In Startover.xyz we use a capital 'E' on the term 'Experiment' to signify that you are doing a 'conscious experiment', meaning, that you maintain that particular kind of Attention you would maintain if you were an Alchemist or a Sorceress doing a particularly transformative test, being wary that the effort builds valuable Matrix in your Being attracting further Consciousness, but hyper-aware that it could go wrong in unpredictably nasty ways.
- WARN PEOPLE: Formally and clearly warn people around you that you are a Possibilitator and will be doing an Experiment to put yourself on auto-pilot, to be asleep at the wheel, to be a Zombie, consciously creating Low Drama, for the purpose of learning better to stay awake, be Radically Responsible, and create High Drama.
- ASK PEOPLE'S PERMISSION: Ask them if they will tolerate your insanity while you do this Experiment for 5 to 10 minutes.
- APOLOGIZE: Apologize earnestly afterwards for any disturbance you caused during your Experiment, but do not insist on going back to the Middle World. Your Nonlinear or Unreasonable behavior
- ASK FOR FEEDBACK: How was it for them? Use Completion Loops when you listen as a Space to whatever they want to tell you, even if it is all about them.
- KEEP YOUR GREMLIN ON ITS CHAIN: Do not let your Gremlin stay in control of you and gloat, or keep doing Gremlin shit when the other Gremlins wake up from your Experiment in unconsciousness and irresponsibility. Keep your Gremlin on its chain, even if it needs to be a long chain for 5 or 10 minutes.
- KEEP TRACK OF TIME: Or better yet, ask someone else to be your TIME KEEPER, to tell you when the 5 or 10 minutes is up. Go for at least 5 minutes. Any shorter is too short to feel the pain of the consequences. But do the Experiment no longer than 10 minutes, or you might forget that you are doing an Experiment. You could get swept up into a whirlpool of energy, caught in your own Booby-Trap. Hours or even days may go by while your Survival Strategy plays itself out until you enter the Waking State again and Notice that you have been lost in the Ordinary World.
- EMOTIONS LAST LONGER THAN 3 MINUTES: This means that the adrenalin and hormones released into your bloodstream by signals from your brain when you are in an Emotionally Reactive state will still be in your bloodstream! even after you have stopped the Experiment. That does not mean that your Emotions are real! They are Emotions! They do not come from the present. They come from the past, from the future, and from the belief system of other people or institutions. Stay Present in your Adult Ego State in a Minimized NOW and Observe how after 20 minutes the sensations from the chemicals in your bloodstream fade out. NOTE: If the sensations continue past 20 minutes, then you have called in a 'Rider' - an energy sucking vampire entity. Good. Then you know exactly how you did it - you know the Trigger Phrase you used - and you can become a Trigger Hunter, capturing this particular 'Trigger Phrase' into the physical prison of your Beep! Book as words on paper. Keep out your Sword Of Clarity and go hunting for the next Trigger Phrase. This is Archetypal Warrioress and Warrior work of the highest order!
- DOCUMENT YOUR WORK: This is an Experiment. Write down what you did and what you learned. Be as clear and specific as you can about what happened, not what you think about what happened. At the end of the Experiment you are doing now you can already know what your next Experiment will be. Then go for it.
- USE RAPID LEARNING: There are 2 kinds of Rapid Learning: a Pressure Rapid Learning (Go! Beep! Shift! Go!) and a Vacuum Rapid Learning. The Survival Strategy Experiments offered below are Pressure Rapid Learning, which means the environment will give you Beep!s and Go!s. Pay Attention to the Beep!s and Go!s as indicators of what to keep or Shift! as you design your next Experiment.
Consciously Control Others Using The Parent Ego State
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.02
In your Parent Egostate, you act by copying authority figures. These could be your parents, teachers, relatives, government, church, commercials, TV shows, etc. Your Parent Egostate can show up as a "nurturing parent" or as a "critical parent".
For this experiment, choose a 7 minute timeframe in which you are encountering other people, and then use your Parent Egostate to control these other people, so that you get exactly what you want.
Note: It could be valuable to warn people that you are doing an Experiment and ask them whether they will tolerate your insanity for the purpose of this experiment. Do this experiment with other adults, and not with children.
Controlling people from your Parent Egostate could look like praising them for doing what you want them to do, or scolding them for what you do not want them to do, or telling them exactly how they have to do things, lecturing them, etc. Make sure you copy the authorities you grew up with so that you control others the way that you were controlled.
After the 7 minutes are over, write down in your Beep! Book what you did and what you learned. Be as clear and specific as you can about what happened, not what you think about what happened.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code SURVIVAL.02 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.
Consciously Control Others Using The Child Ego State
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.03
The Child Egostate includes both the 'free natural' child and the 'scared needy adaptive' child that originate with considerations from the past. In your Child Ego State, you communicate about being scared, needy and adaptive so as to avoid encountering uncomfortable things that have already happened to you, or to continue encountering “warm-fuzzy” experiences that are naively irrelevant.
For the purpose of this experiment, choose a 10 minute timeframe in which you encounter other people and relate to them for the whole 10 minutes only from your Child Egostate. Make sure you get exactly what you want by using your child emotions to ensure others do not attack you, they give you what you need without you having to ask for it, by putting your neediness at the center of the space and letting others revolve around it.
Note: It could be valuable to warn people that you are doing an Experiment and ask them whether they will tolerate your insanity for the purpose of this experiment. Do this experiment with other adults, and not with children.
After the 10 minutes are over, write down in your Beep! Book what you did and what you learned. Be as clear and specific as you can about what happened, not what you think about what happened.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code SURVIVAL.03 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.
Consciously Let Your Gremlin Do Its Hidden Purpose On Others Or Yourself
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.04
When your Gremlin Egostate slides in and takes over, your purpose diminishes to mere Survival, at whatever the cost, to make things familiar even if it is a suffocating familiar. This includes persecuting yourself or others, victimising yourself or others, rescuing yourself or others, ridiculing, etc. Your Gremlin serves hidden purposes, shadow principles, such as control, superiority, inferiority, righteousness, manipulation, judgment, revenge, hatred, blame, competition, etc.
For this experiment, you choose a 7 minute timeframe in which you are around others, and then for the full 7 minutes you will consciously let your Gremlin do its hidden purpose on others or yourself. This means you let your Gremlin choose and speak. It may look like laughing at other's damage (Schadenfreude), gleefully bathing in other people's failure, telling yourself or others how you are so much better than them, or how you are so much worse than them, etc.
Note: It could be valuable to warn people that you are doing an Experiment and ask them whether they will tolerate your insanity for the purpose of this experiment. Do not do this experiment with children.
After the 7 minutes are over, write down in your Beep! Book what you did and what you learned. Be as clear and specific as you can about what happened, not what you think about what happened.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code SURVIVAL.03 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.
Consciously Do Bullshit To Distract People From Presence
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.05
For the next 7 days, starting today, make it your practice to do bullshit to ensure people are not present by distracting them for 10 minutes per day. Please bear in mind the Experiment hints above for this experiment.
Bullshit is made up of stories that are relevant, but not true. This means you will consciously lie to people in order to distract them with things that would be relevant if they were true. Notice what happens and write it down in your Beep! Book. Ask others for their Feedback and write it down also.
After completing this Experiment, please register Matrix Code SURVIVAL.05 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your Experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.
Consciously Be Adaptive To Not Be A Problem
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.06
Each moment you are Being Adaptive, each adaptive action you take, further confines you to the prison of survival behaviors. You won't be able to shift out of Being unconsciously Adaptive until you can Be Adaptive consciously.
For this Experiment, commit to 10 minutes of adapting to your environment so that you are not a problem: Try to figure out what others want, so that you can adapt and go along without being a problem. When something does not work for you, swallow it. Do not speak up. Do not be a problem. When you are lacking clarity, do not ask for clarification, because that might be uncomfortable for the other. Find out other ways of being adaptive so that you are not a problem for others.
Write down in your Beep! Book what you noticed. Ask the others for their Feedback.
Repeat this Experiment at least on two more occasions for 10 minutes each time over the course of this week.
After completing this Experiment, please register Matrix Code SURVIVAL.06 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your Experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.
Consciously Give Your Center Away To Not Be A Threat
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Do Not Use Your Disk Of Nothing And Get Offended
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Get Fiercely Offended About Someone Using What You Created
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Contaminate Your Adult Ego State With Your Parent Ego State (YOUR PARENT'S RULES AND BELIEFS) To Avoid Responsibility
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Make Only GREEN BRAIN Interactions To Feel Safe And Connected
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Make Only RED BRAIN Interactions To Feel Safe And Taking Actions
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Make Only BLUE BRAIN Interactions To Feel Safe And Right
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Make Only YELLOW BRAIN Interactions To Feel Safe In The Unconcerned Big-Picture Overview
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Create Only "I Win, You Lose" Competitive Interactions To Make Yourself SUPERIOR
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Competition involves constant comparisons against other people or against standards set by external authorities. The Box may feel comfortable only being a loser, or only being perfect, the best. Both are insane because they are so far away from reality. But to the Box, being Inferior or being Superior may feel like life-or-death necessity.Consciously Create Only "I Win, You Lose" Competitive Interactions To Make Yourself INFERIOR
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Competition involves constant comparisons against other people or against standards set by external authorities. The Box may feel comfortable only being a loser, or only being perfect, the best. Both are insane because they are so far away from reality. But to the Box, being Inferior or being Superior may feel like life-or-death necessity.Consciously Make Someone Else The Problem
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01To be the good boy, to be right, to be the Angel, to be the nice girl, to be the Teacher's Pet, to keep yourself cut off from friends, to betray others before they betray you, to blame, to resent, to be superior, to be arrogant, to reject Presence and Innocence, to have Schadenfreude food for your Gremlin, etc. Find your own Box's purposes.Consciously Avoid Putting The Poop On The Table
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Hide the Poop. Pretend as if there is no Poop. Keep the Poop under the table. Keep Poop in your secret Poop Treasure Chest (secret resentments, secret withholds, secret hatreds, secret commitments to get revenge) so that no matter what happens, you always have some Poop to pull out and use against anyone to avoid Presence and Intimacy.Consciously Avoid Noticing Details To Keep Your Fantasy World Bubble From Being Popped By Reality
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Keep whistling. Keep making comments or telling little jokes. Keep worrying about the past or the future, or your parents, or your kids, or money, or your hair, or the state of the world, anything to avoid being Present.Consciously Use "I Know" Torpedoes
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Use "I don't know" Torpedoes
Matrix Code: SURVIVAL.01Consciously Generate Sleep Waves
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